I'll Tell You Mine if You Tell Me Yours!

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I'm not sure what you mean by

I'm not sure what you mean by "believe so long". I haven't believed in almost 40 years. And I hold absolutely nothing against my parents for sending me to church. If you're referring to my other post about child abuse, I only meant that the teachings of the church messed me up psychologically and they instilled so much fear in me that it's been tough to get completely past it. Like Tin-Man said, 'that shit ain't no picnic'. But I totally get that my parents were just trying to do what they thought was right. I've never held it against either one of them at all. It's what I was taught in church that I take exception to and consider to be abuse to some degree. That's all I meant.

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this is my first time telling

this is my first time telling my story. I wasn't a religious when I was kid but I would feel guilty for not feeling god in my heart that I would pray more or read the Quran or attend classes. in my teen I was religious. although one thing kept troubling me. in Quran god talk about people of other believe that they are wrong because they were born into their parents believe without questioning wether it is the right believe or not and they will go to hell for it. yet I was born into my my parents religion without questioning wether it is right or wrong.
I got married when I was 19 and I was the perfect wife that the Quran describes. I pray to god for a good husband ever since I could understand what marriage is. and I did everything was asked of me. I was good to him and to his parent I never talked ill of him even when I should.
three years into the marriage he traveled, and the second day he went to the our embassy and divorce me and send me a text saying he doesn't love me and he doesn't want to be married to me anymore. this crush me hard. my believe system allow this to happen to me. it gave the man the power to ruin my life without my saying in any of it. I prayed since I was 13 for god to give me a good husband but he gave my a horrible one, I did every thing I should so why did god did this to me.
I start questioning islam and the power it give to men, and one day I was brave enough to see it clear, islam was mohammed way to have everything he wanted and 1400 years later I am suffering because of it. he wasn't even original most of his believe are for Christianity.
I have been an atheist for 4 years now, however I am closeted because I am living in islamic country.

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@Jay

@Jay

Thank you for sharing your story. I cannot even imagine how difficult it must be for you living in those conditions. For what it is worth, I think you are very brave. Hopefully you will eventually be able to move to a place where you no longer have to hide your true thoughts. Be safe out there. And remember, the AR is here for you to voice your thoughts should you need a place to vent.

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Jay,

Jay,
Stay safe, stay under the religious police radar, talk to us anytime.

Technically use a vpn over tor....than you are not easily traced when on the boards.

Good luck, you sound like a very nice person. Take care.

Tin Man is to be trusted.

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