So I was recently thinking how about wording/describing an experience I've endured at the beginning of this year, and now I have mentally dealt with it, I'm comfortable in sharing.

In December I found a mass in my side, the location of which required investigation as it synonymous with bowl cancer.

Now I always thought in the past, I could understand these situations are when people start to pray/look to a deity for help... even if it's simply looking up to the stars and pleading for help inwardly within your own mind(as oppose to shouting it out loud)... is them clinging desperately to hope?

However I never found this of myself, I just felt compelled to book all the appointment I needed to asap and get a few things in order (wills and so fourth)... just in case!
I carried on as normal, I have a wonderful job at
as a seismic engineer and I'm known as the heart and soul of my team... in the time of my issues, no one guessed anything was up as I continued as normal and just enjoyed life as normal.

Luckily, it was a Lipoma, a benign mass, and not anything to be concerned by.

But it's made me wonder, was my reaction rational due to having never been indoctrinated? I literally never had any idea of religions or gods until I was at senior school (13 yrs old) and religious education was mandatory, and by then it just smacked of other myths like Santa Claus to me... and obviously it still does to this day.

To be honest it's to the point I never regard myself as an atheist, because I don't give any credence to a god concept, in my mind the notion is childish and pathetic, however i would consider myself a naturalist.

Anyways, Could this be the difference? What do you guys think? Have you found yourself in a similar circumstance

Apologies if a little lengthy.