So I called myself an agnostic, but I was really an atheist specifically an agnostic atheist. Then I tried that prayer crap I asked for a wife essentially a week later I met my ex-fiancé. I took it as a sign from god and became a non demominational Christian. Given that I was looking for a girlfriend really shitty reason to believe.
Any who it didn't work out, but on to my reason for being a real shitty atheist. I developed a form of psychosis that ruined my education, work, and relationships and of course I became an atheist because I was "mad at god" for doing this shit to me.
However the "mad at god" crap actually made me go research the facts and I actually as a result read the bible and researched its history, and I came to the conclusion it was total factual bullshit. Had I not been selfish I would have realized this shit happens to people every day that is evidence against god not for, but because I viewed myself as favored I believed.
Some of the nails in the coffin for my christian belief were finding out the Gilgamesh story and the jews just ripped that crap off, and reading the bible which endorses slavery, and genocide and more immoral crap.
It was the facts that made me a true atheist not just "mad at god". For instance the talking snake was a clear rip off of earlier myths. The contradictions with science and reality and itself that book is clearly not infallibe this realization is what gave me the confidence to call complete bullshit on it. Also the fact that it wasn't even orginal material but clearly plagerized material made me question it even more.
Any who I fear dying and no afterlife which is why I think my "religious mind" creeps its way in. The idea of forever losing the people I love is detestable, but it is better then the "god' who tortures them fore eternity and fortunately most likely the case.
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