I was raised 100% Episcopalian. I tried. I went to church after church. As soon as we got involved in the vestry or the elders or whatever, we discovered the hypocrisy of the whole thing. Either they are trying to sell curing a long standing health problem after 30 minutes of praying or they are disallowing people going to communion because they may not believe exactly as the Missouri Senate Lutherans do. What!! Jesus was supposed to be this really accepting who supposedly communed with prostitutes and the dregs of society, but those who claim he was the messiah and follow him, can't even imagine the idea of drinking a sip of wine and eating a piece of bread with someone who doesn't buy the delusion. Seriously?! Why do we have this need to believe in something? It's all bullshit! When I see what people do in the name of religion, and I just think to myself, REALLY?? What is wrong with people. Use your brain!!

Of course, if I ever told my family I felt like this, I would never hear the end of it and my parents and my brother and his wife would be all up in my face trying to save me. I can't handle that! I don't want to be saved. Why does it make me a bad person?