I have to admit, the grand meaninglessness of this life in which this universe is all a result of random processes does give meaning to many people's lives to a degree. They are free to live however they want and there is no deity to dictate any grand meaning in their lives. But for me and many others, this just doesn't work out for us and I am going to explain why.

I am a composer and I have a composing dream to live for. But the only reason why I was able to live for it, pursue it, and find meaning in it and other things in my life is only because I was lucky enough to stay alive since no fatal illness has come into my life and killed me off yet and no other such fatal event has happened to me yet.

I find this to make life meaningless. The fact that I wasn't chosen to live and that I am only alive here today because of sheer luck in a life that consists of much illnesses and suffering that kills off so many people, it is like I am nothing more than some meaningless cell or bacteria that just lives, thrives, survives, and fades away.

But in a way, that is what we as human beings really are though and that just makes life and my goals/dreams empty and meaningless to me. I have created, what I believe to be, are epic masterpieces in my mind and I have yet to fully learn music theory in order to share them to the world.

That is my goal and dream to share them. But the fact that things are looking a bit grim for me right now since a potential fatality is likely to happen in my life due to my body and immune system not being in perfect shape due to my flawed genetics and whatnot, I worry that I will never get that chance to share my compositions and that I will soon die before then.

So you can see here why I find life to be plain meaningless here. Why I find it empty and basically not worth living at all. We are all nothing more than like a bunch of cells or bacteria struggling to survive. It doesn't matter how great of a goal or pursuit you have in your life to live for. As long as you are not in healthy shape for survival, you will die off and you will remain dead just like a fading cell or bacteria.

No afterlife to make up for this life and that's it. If you are just plain unlucky in which you are born with an unhealthy body and immune system, then you are just plain unlucky and it's just too bad that you have to die before you get the chance to inspire others and do something great with your life. Your goals/dreams that you found profound meaning in can no longer be pursued any longer as such with the example of a famous and inspired singer who has permanently lost his/her singing voice due to some fatal accident in his/her life.

And all because of our flawed biology that is prone to so much suffering, disease, illness, and death. We need lives and bodies that reflect the greatness of us and our goals/dreams. We need immortal bodies and to live lives of no more suffering and illness. We need to find a way to resurrect decayed corpses back to life since so many people have missed out on life and never got the chance to pursue their great and genius talents.

One last thing here. I even find the concept of dying and forever remaining dead to make us and our lives lesser. I don't find it heroic or meaningful at all for a person to forever die for someone else, anything else, and in leaving a legacy behind for others. The only thing that truly makes you awesome, heroic, great, and living a meaningful life is living on forever, having no suffering in your life, and living in eternal bliss.

Many people would say that one who dies and leaves a legacy behind for others is someone truly great. But I find this very statement nonsensical because once you are dead, you can be nothing great anymore. You are completely wiped out of existence. So how is someone who dies forever great?

Sure, you can acknowledge that they were a great person in the past when they were alive. But that was all in the past. The past is nothing more than just a memory. We are talking about the here and now. In the here and now, this person is gone and nothing is left of him/her.

He/she cannot live on in any other way because this is physically impossible. The only thing that is "living on" here would be the things that are leftover from his/her existential life. Those things being his/her works of art, etc. So it is his/her works of art that are now great. But as for the artist, he/she is no longer anyone great anymore since he/she is now dead.

Therefore, sacrificing yourself to leave a legacy behind and to die for any other given reason should be avoided at all costs since it makes you nothing as an individual. You should instead live all for yourself, your own personal pleasure and enjoyoment, and not bother doing such things that others tell you to do. You are better off living for yourself for all eternity in eternal bliss with no suffering in your life. That is the only life you have to live to give you love, joy, happiness, and meaning. Not this life of suffering, illness, disease, and death.