HI!
I'm new to this forum, but not new to the community. I've been an atheist for 10 years (now I'm 24), but right now religion ruins my love life.
I'm from Belarus, former USSR. One day on Facebook I met a Spanish guy. He was working in Poland, which is very close to my country, and when he came to my town with friends, we realized we liked each other so much. We spent a night together, but nothing really happened, we decided not to risk, I didn't want to get pregnant.
After that he went back to Poland and told me he's a Catholic and if I want to start relationships with him I should accept that God would also take part in it. I was shocked and frustrated, I told him I'm an Atheist and I would not be able to believe in God even if wanted to, but I would accept him and his beliefs. Then he said that because our views on life are different, we would break up. I was heartbroken and blocked him on FB. Within the next 7 months he was trying to talk to me, saying he would like to be friends but I ignored him.
This autumn I suddenly accepted his friend request. I don't know why, maybe I was curious. We started talking and decided to be friends. Time heals, so I was able to agree.
After some time our feelings came back again, he texted me that he missed me and came to my town again. We spent 3 days together, it was a wonderful time, we were both happy. He was trying to sleep with me, but due to certain state my body was in it was impossible.
After he came back to Poland he told me he wanted to be with me and I should be ready to accept his beliefs. I told him that he was free to believe what he wanted to believe and go to church, I would be even ready to go with him sometimes if needed just because I value him so much.
But then he started to talk about things I will never understand.
He told me: "although you aren't a Catholic, you would need to agree on certain Catholic values. For example, no contraceptives methods are allowed. We should be always open to new life, if that's God's will. The only thing the couple can do is, if they seriously think they can't afford more children at the moment, follow natural planning methods. Which basically allow the woman to understand in which phase she is. I've met older couples who follow these methods, and they are happy with them. For Catholics, to have a new child cannot be bad news anyway, so cannot be unsafe. But without implementing any artificial barrier. I know the predominant values nowadays are different".
I was so shocked and scared I couldn't work ( I was in office). I told him that in a modern world it would be almost impossible to find a young girl who would truly accept this kind of requirements. And that I'm not ready to give bitrth as many times as natural planning methods would require. It would make me disabled sick person. It is my body and my health and it's me who would have pain and problems in any case. I could even die because I have certain health problems.
Now he says that with time he would be able to convince me that it's not dangerous and that there's a whole reasoning behind it.
What I think is that when you are a Catholic of such kind and you meet a girl and you like each other, this is the first thing you should tell her. Not to have any problems in future and . Or you should get into some Catholic society where it is considered to be ok. If you are this kind of man, you should look for the same kind of woman. I'm not sure that even among them he would be able to find any girl who would agree with that), but he should not make "average" girls like me suffer.
I spoke to some of my fellow Catholics and googled. I found out in the statictics that only 7-10 % of Catholics don't use contraceptives. How come there are such people like him nowadays in the 21st century?
I'm not trying to make him an atheist. I didn't try to convince him. I'm giving him freedom to think like he would like to think.
But he doesn't give me that right. Seems that between him and me it's only me who should make concessions.
And other things are really ok, I'm very tolerant person, but this is related to my life. My health is not very good even now and I'm not ready to risk.
Maybe you all would think I'm stupid but it seems that I fell in love with him.
Do you think it is possible to save this relationships and would it be worth it?
Sorry for such a huge post, I really needed to vent and to feel some support.
Thanks for reading...
P.S. Sorry if my English is not perfect.
Hugs. <3
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