Hey y'all. Still chugging along.

Mornings are super hard for me. I'm out the door and already at work before my room mates are even awake and the waking quietbis a huge trigger for my worries. Today my brain tried to tempt me with old thoughts on Fatima, telling me that the timing alone would be miraculous even if the mechanism is not (I had already come to the conclusion, thanks to a long article by a physicist who endangered his own vision to prove that these miracles are nothing but mirages) but in the early morning when my brain is rebooting, it suddenly seemed miraculous that the rain should stop and the clouds part just when the girl needed them to. It seemed too huge a coincidence to happen on its own.

But then, I stopped myself, not wanting to go down that path again, and I asked myself, is magic the ONLY explanation for this? Is it IMPOSSIBLE for such a coincidence to occur or simply unlikely? A hundred to one, a million to one, it's still possible

And honestly it's one of the clearest moments I've had in a long time. Even if someone seems amazingly unlikely, it doesn't require magic or god or fairies at all. I often fall victim to the fallacy of incredulity; I can't fathom how x could happen, so it must be goe. Nope! and with how much of the world is Christian and activly seeking signs and wonders and making prophesies, probability says sometimes they're just going to get fucking lucky

Disclaimer again, I am not reading or researching anything, I'm only dealing with the thoughts I already have as I learn to dismiss them and learn new skills , and I'm pretty proud of how I'm going, being able to shove shit aside and pretty much go "not today Yahweh"